Still Here :)

Hello everyone! I am still here! I took a break from social media and the internet while I moved and settled in at home. I also wanted to take some time to figure out what my next step would be. God does work in mysterious ways. I thought that my main focus was to be a life coach but it turns out that doing what I call, "energetic cleansing" is where my real gift is. It is a great deal like Reiki but it's not exactly Reiki. I go off of intuition and simply place my hands on the client to pray that they will heal. Yes, I focus on healing the body but my approach is holistic, so I tie in the healing of mind, body and soul. I plan on recording a web cam video of what I do. I am sure my client will agree to it. I can not give out his name here, due to privacy issues but I can tell you a little bit about this man. He was recently in a really bad car wreck which left him paralyzed from the waist down. He can use his arms and hands, can talk, is alert and "with it." He is himself still and has a sense of humor but he is also a brand new person, who is surprisingly warm, grateful, compassionate and tender hearted. He used to be a handful, with a loud mouth. I could not stand him about 5 yrs ago. You see, technically he is a friend that I have not seen in years but I am doing healing work on him and have been doing so for over a week now. It seems to help him and he can feel the healing energy flow through him.

I have been wanting to do this kind of work and I finally just went with it. It FEELS right..... It just feels so right and natural to me to do this kind of work. I have had many dreams (at night) about manipulating energy and the elements, like Harry Potter or something. :) Honestly... Like a witch..... Sometimes I am good and sometimes I am evil in these dreams. Now that my yin and yang are balanced, I feel that I can do this kind of healing work on others. This does not mean that I am no longer a life coach. I still offer life coaching sessions but now my main focus is on being an energetic healer. The shift is a bit confusing to me so I am sure it is for you as well. I am sorry for that but please hang in there with me because it is worth it. I am confident that I have some awesome healing to send your way! :) For the life coaching bit, I decided to shorten it and call the business "Promise Life Coaching" rather than "Promise Christian Life Coaching by Chrystyana." The logo looks better this way and it tells people that this is life coaching for everyone and not JUST Christians.

I remember my aunt telling me that I change my mind a lot but yah know.... As women, I think we CAN do just that. Life is a journey and things often change, we discover new things about ourselves and about life, etc.... It is amazing! Changes make life an enriching experience, don't you think? :) As I am writing this and sharing my journal with you openly, I wonder if this is having the impact that I want? I put this stuff out there to help you work through your own issues as I work through mine. I want you to get to know me and I would also like to get to know you. By writing this blog and most of the other ones I have written, my goal is to show you that there is beauty in imperfection, you CAN do what you love to do for a living, soul searching pays off and steers you in the right direction, AUTHENTICITY will get you what you want in life and.... It is OK to be both a sinner and a saint! So yeah, it's a hodge podge of various things but the essential message here is to be yourself and to look at life with a brighter and more optimistic perspective. This is what I do! I am a positive perspective life coach and an energetic healer.

I recently had a mentor help me to get very specific on what it is that I offer and I find that I am narrowing it down. I had the opportunity to be a part of an online coaching network and declined on the offer because I do not want to be tied into a contract. It didn't feel right in my gut so I had to let it go and simply focus on my energetic healing work. I have one client as of right now and I think he will be a client for a while. My goal is to earn cash doing this work! It all begins with a dream folks! A dream and persistence! I have learned that you have to put yourself out there even before you are ready to do so. It gets the ball rolling and make things happen. I have tripped and fell and messed up countless times as I try to get my business known and out there. All I can do is be authentically me. Some people will love it and others will not. I just keep hanging in there! Folks, I will get back to you all again when I have time. May God bless you and take care! :)

I have made the decision that I am going to do my very best to be as healthy as I can be; mind, body and soul. It is not always easy for me and I do struggle almost every day to be the person that I want to be. Mental illness, severe insomnia and sleep apnea make life much more difficult that most people realize. You really have to experience it to fully understand it all. I believe that I am a very real, authentic and genuine person. I am also very honest and don't like to lie. I strive to make compassion, love and empathy an everyday practice. I don't want to just practice it.... I want to BE those things and make them permanent, embedded characteristics within my soul. I recognize the beauty within my soul and all of the wonderful things about who I am and my character. Many people have said many hurtful things about me, including mental health "professionals" who swear they know me but they really don't. Like my friend once told me, "what other people think of you is none of your business." I agree with her, don't you? :)
I have been struggling to find a healthy balance within myself and also my life coaching business. Well, with everything actually. For several years I felt that I was getting back on track, even though I had some hard times along the way. I felt that my meds were effective and that I was managing my mental health pretty well. Then, the love of my life broke my heart and could not love me as I loved her. Then, my son passed away...... So my meds no longer worked and even with strong medication, I struggle to get solid sleep and have a hard time wearing my c pap for my sleep apnea. Perhaps sharing so openly and blunty will harm my chances in bringing in some life coaching clients? I think it has but I refuse to conform to all of the rules just to make some money and I HAVE to be authentically me. I believe this is how God made me.
So folks.... I am going to REALLY PUSH myself to be the best me possible and.... I'm going to break some rules too and not conform to the rules and restraints that society and religion has placed on me. For the rest of this year, I plan on experiencing things spiritually that fall outside of the realm of traditional, old school Christianity. I waver a lot, which is something that I would like to erase from my own character. One minute I am an old school, by the book (Holy Bible) Christian and the next minute, I am a New Ager, interested in the occult, Wicca and the love of nature and it's elements. I feel a very strong connection to the moon and water. I am also very drawn to fire.... I miss my walks and bike rides to the snake river, sitting by the river and soaking up the sunlight AND the moonlight. One night, I made love to my son's father right by the river, under the moonlight and it was an incredibly magic and powerful experience. The moon seems to charge my batteries and makes me feel very alive and sensual. It's a wonderful feeling!
What do you relish from mother earth? I love the connection with her, which is why I am so drawn to Wicca and Shamanism. Will I go to hell for practicing and believing in these things? The Holy Bible tells me yes, I will but I can't seem to fully conform to the Christian lifestyle. One of the issues is that I have to deny myself of any kind of sexual experience until I am married, which is unrealistic, in my opinion. I am a highly sexual, passionate and sensual woman. Is this bad? I don't think so.... Is it wrong to have Christian, Shamanic and Wiccan beliefs? I don't think so...... As long as I continue to practice love, empathy and compassion, then I am ok. I refuse to practice any kind of dark magic, or anything dark because I don't want to be that person.
Look, I am jumping all over the place AGAIN, lol :) I want to take a writing class to get better at blogging! I am trying to relate to you all and I realize that I need to work on this. I will get back to you all soon!
Love,
Your Life Coach
Chrystyana :)

#RandomArt

My new camera has inspired me to capture #RandomArt, as I go through each day. It's also a beautiful part of the shamanic path; seeing the beauty all around, every day. What random artsy stuff have you seen lately? What did it inspire in your heart? My answer below.
***“Phenomenon,” an outdoor sculpture, and “The Book-loving Dragon,” a suspended piece in the children’s area of Maple Grove Library, were funded by the One Percent for Art initiative and celebrated June 2.(Copied and pasted from website)***
*Pic taken at the Maple Grove, MN library
* http://maplegrovemag.com/article/art/maple-groves-new-library-sculpture

When I looked at this sculpture, it made me think of the wind. To me, it feels like a violent storm in my own heart and soul. The stick like figures represent my emotions (often turbulent) and messy..... Yet, notice how beautiful and captivating this sculpture is? It's messy, beautiful and confined all at the same time. It's messy and neat at the same time.... Violent and controlled at the same time. I say, this represents my emotions very well. I love art! I love it that I see art everywhere! It's all in the eye of the beholder, right? Yah know, sometimes I forget to mention God here and I need to do this more often cuz that is the purpose of what I do as a life coach (to spread the gospel of Jesus Christ). I think that our Lord gave us art, don't you? He also created the earth and all of it's beautiful creatures. :) This keeps me going, even in times of grief and sorrow, art and the beauty in this world keeps me going.
I have been having a hard time since my son passed away and it really has not been long since he passed. Sometimes it feels like he passed away just yesterday. I miss him so very much. My son Taylor was and IS the apple of my eye and I love my angel dearly. I often ask myself how I can use my own experiences to help you, clients and blog readers. How can I help others and not get too self involved while I share my experiences and encouragement with all of you? My goal is to build you up in the Lord's word. I figured that my own personal experiences could help you to resolve some of your own issues and I know that many of you can relate to my experiences in life. I am always open to constructive criticism, so feel free to post comments under my blog posts and tell me what you are interested in reading and discussing?
I have been saying for a while now that I have been planning on beginning my own podcast and recording more Vlog videos, plus continuing on this blog. Those are my goals and well... Let's just say... I have been going through a creative dry spell. Mind you, I am in the field of healing ARTS, so there is an artistic and creative component to what I share with all of you. Lately, I have been doubting my own abilities to be a life coach and to help others through this profession but is it a profession/career or just a hobby? Since I make no money, it is feeling like more of a hobby but I enjoy sharing with all of you and like the idea of helping others work through whatever spiritual blocks they may be facing. God has helped me through a tremendous amount of trauma, grief and sorrow, so I feel obligated to give back to others. It feels like it's my duty and yes... I enjoy this too. :)
Wow.... So I go off on tangents quite often, lol! :) As you can see! :D The main focus of this blog post is art! It's all about encouraging you to see beauty in your everyday life, to enjoy it thoroughly and...... to allow it to sink in. Really think about it (something beautiful or artistic) and FEEL what it means to you. Allow yourself to be MOVED by beauty, to feel deeply and to fully ENJOY it! I always say that God is a magnificent artist! Just go out in nature and admire the beauty that He has given us and it's all FREE! Praise God! :D
So that was my life coachy schpiel, lol! :) I hope it has boosted up your spirit, cuz it has boosted mine up! I love all of you and wish you all well! Blessings!
Love,
Chrystyana :)

Just Checking In! :)

Hello! :)

Keep Going and DO NOT Give Up!

 

Just some words of encouragement folks! Never give up on your dreams! Keep going and DO NOT give up! Sometimes it gets hard (life does) and things do not always go the way we want it to go but the effort is worth it! Your passion is worth the perseverance because it's what you love to do!

To Coach Or Not To Coach?

I have been thinking a great deal lately and I suppose that's nothing new.... but it's more about securing a better future/life for myself and my potential family (meaning children). I often kick myself, asking why I don't have anything to show for all of the hard work in my life. I have fallen into the trap of measuring my own success by the standards of the world we live in. I criticize myself, asking myself why I can't be better? Why can't I get clients? Am I too honest in my work and online? Am I driving people away? The list of insecurities goes on and on and on..... I keep coming back to the conclusion that I should not be in this line of work (life coaching) to make a living. True, some people just have that gift, whatever it is I don't know but they just have that extra something in their personality that makes them super successful in the life coaching arena.
For me personally, my transparency can actually scare people off, lol! :) I am constantly trying to do a balancing act so I don't do that to people because that is not the energy that I want to send out into the world! Yet I come back to the conclusion that I can not pretend to be something that I am not! I have to be genuine and REAL because this is simply who I am. I also have to accept that I am not the right fit for everyone! There are many coaches out there right now and we all have our own unique personalities.
So I ask  myself, is this something I want to continue to invest in when I have no clients and am making $0.00? That's right.... I don't make a single cent doing this but I think my heart is in the right place. It can be frustrating because life is expensive and I am tired of being broke but.... it's ok because I LIKE this line of work. I write my blog and do my best to keep up with all of my social media and other sites to share with all of you and possibly help someone along the way. I am accepting that life coaching will NOT be my main source of income and that I will have to choose another career path to make a living. I am not giving up on my coaching business but I have to be realistic. The hard part is feeling that I have failed and people do the, "I told you so" thing, which is hard to take. Still... I am trying to make some kind of a difference in this world and I want it to be a GOOD thing. I want to do something good for people and this world we live in.
I think of people who strived for many years to reach their goals and to see their dreams fulfilled. The ones who actually make it don't give up, even when things seem hopeless and the strong ones know when it is time to move on and pursue something else. Thankfully I have not reached that point and I hope I don't but if I do, I will allow change to unfold with God's grace.
The Lord grants us grace when we ask for it. I am grateful for that. After all, where we would we all be without the Lord's grace? I have been praying to God about my life and asking Him what He wants. I feel that God is nudging me to keep going with this business but to find a reliable and stable source of income. One thought was possibly getting training to be a pharmacy technician because there are jobs available and people need their medications! Lol.
Anyways, I suppose my point is to keep reaching for that goal; for your dream. Work at it for as long as it feels good. If you need to give up on that dream and strive for something else, then do that and don't beat yourself up for failing. It's a part of life and life always goes on! Life never stops because we fail or because something bad happens. Sometimes I wonder why the world keeps going when terrible things happen but it does! It doesn't stop to pat us on the back. Nope! We just have to keep pushing on! :) Thankfully God is there for us to lean on in our time of need. God gives us refuge and a place of rest, peace and comfort in a cruel world.
New Living Translation: 2 Corinthians 1:4
He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us.
I figure that I can do just what this bible verse says. As God comforts us, I would like to comfort you. I know this world can be a hard place to live in but life itself is worth living when you have God at your side. I will continue to be here to build you up and share the gospel with you. Take care friends. Keep dreaming and striving and keep the faith in our Lord and savior Jesus Christ. With God all things are possible.
Love,
Chrystyana